Dambazau

After a thousand riddled thoughts, and a hundred yesterdays,
i have come to believe, the effects of discarded dreams,
my dreams, squeezed outta of me by the arms of grand self deception,
ive been pinned down by my mortal flaws,
condemned to wander in search of my dream's remaining pieces,
Alas! i have come to a realization,
that which my mind holds, that which i wished for,
to love only once, to attain that which is seen as just an element of blurred perceptions,
to be as noble as can be,
a deserved gratitude frm I to the ruler of we,
who gave me a talent, my abba nd umma,
who led me frm x this to x that, nd through xs to the power of ten, and more,
who when I sowed tulips nd reaped thorny roses still made me see the beauty in loosing,
truth be told though, not all his blessings my one eyed mind can understand,
Steady as it seems, its got an eye glued to a fickle companion,
so wen i smile and tell u tht i cnt,
dont think me weak, for I is a tranquil lion,
but,
my heart waits,
and where i stand nw, what im feeling nw is like nthng uve ever known,
my sanity is hanging by a thread,
dont risk ur worries trynna make sense of my madness,
this fight of wat is, wat isnt,  wat will be, and tht wch doesnt stand a chance,
ts a duel between the maker nd the breaker
a duel btw my mind and tht wch proves me human, my heart
shackling the untamed stallions of my mind,
breaking their every attempt to run free,
here,is  I,a body bound to rot...
and half the soul trapped between a duel between my heart and mind...
my mind makes me but my heart breaks me...