Obsession

To wait, i couldn't, the balky signs, i brushed aside,
i let u  grow,
goaded by  my belief in my list of endless possibilities, conjured with my hearts deceitful belief, that fate's leading me thru it, u fed on that,
scared of breaking the contemptible rule of love,
 i let u grow, a monster,
i became a brother  to the night,  for inhaling an end made me quiver,
my soul held captive in the lure of illicit emotions,
Now, i sing jingles, reminiscing my encounter with thee, my dangerous little obsession.....

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May be everyone will jump at the chance of going back in time to change somethings. I wouldn't. so far there is nothing undone that i wish i could do or things done i wish i could undo.
I have had my fair share of could have beens,  and every day, once or twice a thing or two will cross my mind and it would hurt like..like everything happened the day before. It sucks!
I would gladly go back in time yes, but it would only be because I want to be 15 again, young and stupid again. I would do every single thing I have done till this day the same way I did it when I was that age. Same friends, same crushes, same lame flows...every single thing! They say u can never truly run away from where you've been, that the past carries all we are and the seeds of what we become.
The memories r what made me who I am today...half man half vampire. . lol
Seriously though even the most  painful thing that happened only taught me how to appreciate beauty, how to value time and most especially  people.